the antidote
i am down, down on myself and down on the world, down like someone who long ago was hurled
into a bottomless pit. but i love music.
it is stupid to feel this way, i think. all out of love and so full of pain, of desire for things out of reach. like someone who has never heard music before. like someone who feels trapped inside themself.
choose something with strings, something gentle. press play. lie down, relax, forget that it is 11:55 a.m. forget what you did last night, what you said, what you never said and who doesn't love you.
music loves you. and i love music.
this song right now, this is mine. it is the antidote to everything wrong in my life. it is a hug from someone i have never met, a conversation with someone who knows exactly how i feel.
someone made this for me. they made it for you too. they made it for anyone who needs it, and even for people who think they don't.
and they made it for themselves. it made them happy, and they wanted to share that. they thought "listen to these sounds, listen to what i can do, listen to what i can say."
if you don't understand that I can't help you.
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2005 - 2010