how to eclipse an eclipse
How to eclipse an eclipse-
You cannot do it alone. You will need friends, and someone new, introduced to you by those friends. Someone who makes you feel alive again, like you want something. Someone who reminds you of being young! But also to not make the same mistakes.
Don't let anyone know, even though you want to tell the world. What is happening inside you is far too swirled to make sense of just yet, and you're very likely blinded by the light.
Go home, you're drunk. When you awake on the couch after five, you can hardly open your eyes to make it to bed. Set your alarm for some time or other, and briefly lament the lack of sleep you will get. For some things, it's worth it.
You give yourself plenty of time to wake up and get to the park where you plan to view the eclipse, but it's not your alarm that wakes you. Hours before it was set to go off, you are already awake, lying in bed, electrified. Life seems full of possibilities again. This goes on for hours, and you stay in bed because it's the best place to daydream. The eclipse could be canceled for all you care! But you'll go anyway of course. It is an eclipse.
When you get there, you're surprised that you're the first to arrive. A few people are walking through the park here and there, but they don't seem to be aware of what's about to take place.
You lay your blanket down in a field of grass and purple clovers. It's hot, and there is hardly a cloud in the sky. A bee comes along and mesmerizes you as it goes from flower to flower. For a minute, the feeling of being out in the wild, far away from the city, comes seeping back into your mind from the depths of long ago. You miss it, and wonder if you'd be better off there than here. A place that feels boundless and free, where there's no Woodward Avenue, no auto repair shop, no apartments, no tennis courts, no power lines or street lights.
A young couple has come to watch the eclipse now, not far from you. They lie on the ground together, getting up every so often to look at the Sun through some kind of device. But they spend most of the time looking at each other.
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2017